total self destruction

i feel horrible all because of the little TALK my mom FORCED on me. she says being a prefect is a BIG RESPONSIBILTY and i am only joing because sonia is joining and its for the WRONG reasons. WHO THE HELL asked for her opinion? so what if i'm only joining cuz of sonia? its my choice. I chose it.

eeek, called aliah and sonia. both not picking up. PICK UP!!! i need someon to talk to :(